Life somehow develops, at last! It is already possible to sleep not for 4 hours, and not to wake up from a wild alarm - can I manage or not? None of the children will suffer if you do not come to him at night to feed, and will not even suffer noticeably if you just go for a month from home to the tropics for racing. Well, for the time being, he will notice that something went wrong if suddenly there is not enough money on the card. But usually, it is okay with it ...
And the sterility of the house can not be induced, not even because the infection no longer takes, and not because two hunting dogs still can not provide any sterility. And simply because some of the grown up children are already washing the floors and dishes. Yes, You will not put scattered clothes in their closet. In general, you enter their room after knocking and sideways. And not often. They, however, still enter your room at any hour of the night with any question, much more complicated than, let's say, whether they may eat a chocolate bar or not to go to school tomorrow ... but even if you could not think anything quickly at night, by morning, after You did not sleep all night and thought over their nightly question, and they peacefully snored until breakfast, as a rule, there is still an answer ...
And at work, you can no longer work at night. And even almost to be sure that according to the Pareto law 80% of employees will perform 80% of tasks by at least 80%, the rest will be written off for force majeure, or we will delegate another, more diligent, correct quickly, and no catastrophe will happen (pah-pah -pah)… And the work is already directed not at the final result - others are already responsible for it, but on these others. Are they healthy? Do the eyes shine? How do they live? What do they dream about? What do they think and feel? How do they see their tasks and the same final result? What can I give them?
And on another job, every training and meeting with a person or business is already a holiday. It is not a debut appearance on the stage - no, it is the upscale controlled action. And a genuine interest in it and excitement, not fear and uncertainty. And I just want one thing - that it was more. And not because something is being paid for, but simply because of this feeling - the need for others and the benefits - is incomparable. And I really want to give ...
And your results in the triathlon, finally (at least sometimes) can already be called this loud word - re-sults! And I'm not even ashamed. It is not ashamed in front of the mirror, which reflects your clearly trained body. And before the scoreboard, which reflects your scores on swimming, biking and especially - running. And plans for a year cause more joy and excitement than fear and doubt ...
And the book is already in print. Of course, if I started writing it today, I would rewrite more than half. But the half that I would left, make me happy and it is not ashamed of it. And I want only more. And better.
Because you already know how to do it. And you know why. And you know - for whom. And in honor of whom. And there is even a name. For a new book. And even the first chapters ...
And already answered the main questions. About myself. About meanings. About relationships. About education. About your vocation even answered. Even answered about my vocation. Suppose, in part, probably, but precisely the vectors are given. And about how you want to live. And where. And with who. And why – what is the most important. Although at times, it seems that this major may not happen, simply because there are not enough money :) …
And You are on TV regularly, and they write something about You and ask You to write something. And to perform. And the search engines find you pretty quickly. And You got a huge number of likes on FB.
And here again - it feels like something happened. But do not deceive.
Do not fool HIM - that inner voice that makes you wake up at night. And do not give you rest. Which tells you that changes are inevitable. With all that you have - it already was. So - in the past. And therefore - does not count. And not even very motivating already. And if you have had so much already, how far do you have the courage to choose something else? After all, when you chose, it was easier for you.
Nothing holds You. And any choice was exactly better than where you started then.
And so much time was ahead, that the price of the mistake, which is always inversely proportional to the period you have given, this price was not taken into account? Because there would always be time to start over.
And now? Can you say – goodbye to all this? To hit the road again?
To understand again that everything from the beginning? Because what you have does not cost you anything? And it's stupid to stick to him, showing others how miraculous is something that lost value for You? What are you - no one again? And you do not know how to do anything?
And what can do today is no longer considered? That those who are dear to you, will stay here, and you - will go further with others or just alone?
And here it again - a crossroad. With lots of road junctions. And there will be no work on mistakes anymore. And you write your story with no corrections. And it scares. More than ever…
Because everything is at stake. And we must decide on this step. And you can - you can not go anywhere. And not to choose. And not to change anything. Only then, at this moment, you will cease to be yourself ...
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Authorize please.